Tired being a yes man

I had so many reasons to step back. But I have 1 reason to keep my feet stand upon this rock and keep climbing..

Learn to say no.

Totally burnt out

I'm burnt out. This past few weeks been working so hard. My school works almost screwed. My works are pressuring me. My ministry discourages me. Father, I'm burnt out. The only thing that I cherish is You. I hate daytime, where I need to do all these routines. I love night. Where I can sit alone in my room and talk with You. Search my heart God, if there's any wicked way.

The Smashing Book

Have gotten my Christmas wish from @iyon thanks brother!

Merry Christmas

Hey, Merry Christmas! =) Had a very touching Christmas service. Drama production is always the best, they're fabulous. So today ayam penyet for our lunch and watched Sherlock Holmes thereafter. Will write in a point form okey, write chop chop then sleep =)

• First thought of today, "Church doesn't need Cyndy, Cyndy needs the church"
• Second thought came from Windy, "Got to raise up, Cyn" Okay, this is not ready yet. I pray I'll be ready when the opportunity comes.
• Thirdly, I received message from my mom. Our apartment at Germany has been sold, next week we will get the money =) God truly hear my prayer, I know this money will be our stepping stone to buy our own house. No more renting, no more debt. Pretty cool, so happy I can end this year victoriously.
• Lastly, hey I haven't touch my final year project (ISCG)?

ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND, CYN?

Keep On

So, today's thought is about brokenness. God reminded me about what I've been through in my life, good or bad whatsoever. From my life I know that it is important to be broken before the Lord.

Brokenness is a time whereby you just couldn't do anything, in front, back, your left and right are just wall and there's seems to be no way. Brokenness is a time when you are deeply miserable with your life that even your closest friend or family couldn't help much. Brokenness, its a time when you keep crying and feel like giving up.

Most importantly, draws back to God, give your shattered heart. Every pieces of those, and let Him fix and glue it for you. It means, brokenness will leads you into a life that dependent on God alone. That what is all about. But it doesn't mean He want to let you suffer for too long. He's looking for your character, not your comfort. In the end you'll come forth as gold. He promised us to be more than conqueror.

Be broken before the Lord is important, but another thing that is as important is to choose to surrender and dependent on God. I've through some storms in life. The most victorious feeling is when I get through it with Jesus. Simple, trust in His character more than I want the breakthrough. So, keep on keeping on! Keep leaning on Him! =)

When you don't see His hand, you can always trust His heart.

I want to sing

I want to sing
Until I am lost in Your love
Till I'm found in Your presence
Worshipping before your throne
Moved by The Spirit
Entering into Your flow
How precious this moment
Lord I want you to know

It's You
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love
Surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again

Thank you God. Thank you City Harvest =)

Written on a ball

Oh well, this is embarrassing. Me and reynie wrote our vision for 2010 in a big ball and it'll be floating on marina bay this coming new year's eve. Have you done yours? =)

Goal 2010

1. Best Graduate Interactive Media
2. CGL
3. Financial Freedom
4. Finish Bible Reading
5. Bible Study for 2 seasons
6. Building Land for CHC
7. CG Growth 30%
8. S43 Multiply
9. Family Got Saved
10. Get Attached (Erm this is preferably next 2 years ok)

Ok, Laugh at me. But ok, These are my type for my future partner. LOL LOL

1. Love God
2. Older than me, max. 5 years
3. Taller than me
4. Smart
5. Indonesian, preferably not Chinese (I'm not racist ok. Its just self-preference.) or Eurasian. Haha.
6. CHC-ers or one of the affiliate church. Haha this is funny.
7. Big no no for skinny guy!
8. Hardworking
9. Have to be able to play music or at least can sing and its sound good (on pitched)
10. Humorous
11. Handsome (At least can see one lah)
12. Caring
13. Like Pst. Kong Hee lah! =) =)

Result!

This semester result is amazingly unexpected. its not by might, its not by strength but truly He is God who rule & reign over my study! PTL! Gonna push more for my last semester!

Ephesians 3:20 (New King James Version)
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.

Hello Again

Being hiatus for awhile since school project, freelance and church ministry have been taken up so much time of mine. Well, since blogspot (at least) needs some paragraph for me to type on, but you may still follow me on twitter. On twitter I'll just say what am I doing at the moment, even the most unimportant things and (who cares?) spamming to everyone who followed me. HAHA.

Gonna end this year gloriously man.

3 John 1:2
Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.

Whom do you live for?

Life is getting tougher. Freelance jobs (opportunity for more money), exciting school projects (opportunity for a good portfolio), another OKTO project! (another opportunity for portfolio), new connect group (opportunity to disciple and to serve), CG outreach (opportunity to grow S43)


So I start to ask myself. What matters to me?

You alone, o God.

For whom you do these all?

Do it unto God, not unto men.

But, seeing that I have lots of things to do, can I excel in everything?

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.

I can see that every opportunities that came along in my life have an absolute purpose.
It's not about me, It's about God. To bring glory back to Him. So whom do you live for?