Cyndy di sini

Tired being a yes man

2010-02-01T01:17:00.002+08:00

I had so many reasons to step back. But I have 1 reason to keep my feet stand upon this rock and keep climbing..

Learn to say no.

Totally burnt out

2010-01-12T02:37:00.003+08:00

I'm burnt out. This past few weeks been working so hard. My school works almost screwed. My works are pressuring me. My ministry discourages me. Father, I'm burnt out. The only thing that I cherish is You. I hate daytime, where I need to do all these routines. I love night. Where I can sit alone in my room and talk with You. Search my heart God, if there's any wicked way.

The Smashing Book

2009-12-27T16:09:00.003+08:00

Have gotten my Christmas wish from @iyon thanks brother!

Merry Christmas

2009-12-26T00:35:00.003+08:00

Hey, Merry Christmas! =) Had a very touching Christmas service. Drama production is always the best, they're fabulous. So today ayam penyet for our lunch and watched Sherlock Holmes thereafter. Will write in a point form okey, write chop chop then sleep =)

First thought of today, "Church doesn't need Cyndy, Cyndy needs the church"
Second thought came from Windy, "Got to raise up, Cyn" Okay, this is not ready yet. I pray I'll be ready when the opportunity comes.
Thirdly, I received message from my mom. Our apartment at Germany has been sold, next week we will get the money =) God truly hear my prayer, I know this money will be our stepping stone to buy our own house. No more renting, no more debt. Pretty cool, so happy I can end this year victoriously.
Lastly, hey I haven't touch my final year project (ISCG)?

ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND, CYN?

Keep On

2009-12-23T00:54:00.004+08:00

So, today's thought is about brokenness. God reminded me about what I've been through in my life, good or bad whatsoever. From my life I know that it is important to be broken before the Lord.

Brokenness is a time whereby you just couldn't do anything, in front, back, your left and right are just wall and there's seems to be no way. Brokenness is a time when you are deeply miserable with your life that even your closest friend or family couldn't help much. Brokenness, its a time when you keep crying and feel like giving up.

Most importantly, draws back to God, give your shattered heart. Every pieces of those, and let Him fix and glue it for you. It means, brokenness will leads you into a life that dependent on God alone. That what is all about. But it doesn't mean He want to let you suffer for too long. He's looking for your character, not your comfort. In the end you'll come forth as gold. He promised us to be more than conqueror.

Be broken before the Lord is important, but another thing that is as important is to choose to surrender and dependent on God. I've through some storms in life. The most victorious feeling is when I get through it with Jesus. Simple, trust in His character more than I want the breakthrough. So, keep on keeping on! Keep leaning on Him! =)

When you don't see His hand, you can always trust His heart.

I want to sing

2009-12-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

I want to sing
Until I am lost in Your love
Till I'm found in Your presence
Worshipping before your throne
Moved by The Spirit
Entering into Your flow
How precious this moment
Lord I want you to know

It's You
You who have won my heart
Taken me into Your arms
Comforted me like a friend
Your love
Surrounded me from the start
I never want to be apart
From You ever again

Thank you God. Thank you City Harvest =)

Written on a ball

2009-12-19T02:15:00.002+08:00

Oh well, this is embarrassing. Me and reynie wrote our vision for 2010 in a big ball and it'll be floating on marina bay this coming new year's eve. Have you done yours? =)

Goal 2010

Best Graduate Interactive Media
CGL
Financial Freedom
Finish Bible Reading
Bible Study for 2 seasons
Building Land for CHC
CG Growth 30%
S43 Multiply
Family Got Saved
Get Attached (Erm this is preferably next 2 years ok)

Ok, Laugh at me. But ok, These are my type for my future partner. LOL LOL

Love God
Older than me, max. 5 years
Taller than me
Smart
Indonesian, preferably not Chinese (I'm not racist ok. Its just self-preference.) or Eurasian. Haha.
CHC-ers or one of the affiliate church. Haha this is funny.
Big no no for skinny guy!
Hardworking
Have to be able to play music or at least can sing and its sound good (on pitched)
Humorous
Handsome (At least can see one lah)
Caring
Like Pst. Kong Hee lah! =) =)

Result!

2009-12-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

This semester result is amazingly unexpected. its not by might, its not by strength but truly He is God who rule & reign over my study! PTL! Gonna push more for my last semester!

Ephesians 3:20 (New King James Version)
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.

Hello Again

2009-11-18T22:57:00.002+08:00

Being hiatus for awhile since school project, freelance and church ministry have been taken up so much time of mine. Well, since blogspot (at least) needs some paragraph for me to type on, but you may still follow me on twitter. On twitter I'll just say what am I doing at the moment, even the most unimportant things and (who cares?) spamming to everyone who followed me. HAHA.

Gonna end this year gloriously man.

3 John 1:2
Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers.

Whom do you live for?

2009-10-08T17:05:00.004+08:00

Life is getting tougher. Freelance jobs (opportunity for more money), exciting school projects (opportunity for a good portfolio), another OKTO project! (another opportunity for portfolio), new connect group (opportunity to disciple and to serve), CG outreach (opportunity to grow S43)

So I start to ask myself. What matters to me?

You alone, o God.

For whom you do these all?

Do it unto God, not unto men.

But, seeing that I have lots of things to do, can I excel in everything?

You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you.

I can see that every opportunities that came along in my life have an absolute purpose.
It's not about me, It's about God. To bring glory back to Him. So whom do you live for?

papaku ultah lho

2009-09-13T00:58:00.004+08:00

So today is my dad's birthday. He's 50 years old. WOW. Time flies too fast, and its been 2 years time span separated by distance between me and my dad. Phone and texts have always be our communicator, and since facebook have taken the easiest way to communicate to your family then it's one of a tool for me and dad chatted and commenting each other activities.

A lot of things happened in my family, good or bad, happy or painful moments we had.. Truly God created this family in such a way for us to mold my character, my perspective, my perseverance, to be less of me and more like Him.

In this very hour, I'd like to thanks my super dad, been working very hard this 2 and a half year to support me with all his might. Nothing i could do but praying for you, may God prospers and guides you.

Don't worry dad, won't let you down.

Nothing is a coincidence in my life. in your life. Count your blessings and give thanks.
Love your father, and love your Father in heaven too.. :)

I take pleasure in worshipping You Lord

2009-08-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

I will come and bow down
At Your feet Lord Jesus
In Your presenceIs fulness of joy
There is nothing
There is no one
Who compares with You
I take pleasure in
Worshiping You Lord

Man this song is very annoited.. I can't hold my tears when i worship with this song..

God is blessing you now, Singapore!

2009-08-09T08:30:00.003+08:00

Happy 44th birthday, Singapore!

manohara huru hara

2009-08-06T10:13:00.003+08:00

Was looking for wi-fi connection.. Look what i found.. why manohara? =.=" swt gede

Bye Bye Mbah Surip

2009-08-04T21:59:00.002+08:00

See, mbah surip phenomenal over twitter..

What am I gonna be in the next 10 year

2009-08-03T19:49:00.003+08:00

A successful designer, serving in cellgroup ministry, have a caring husband and raising godly children.

Hahaha! Udah ah di amin in aja XD

Thoughts

2009-08-02T01:52:00.003+08:00

Randomly. I want to type whatever i want to say. So what, ini blog gue situ siapa?

Well, when Rev. Mark Corner asked me to pray for somebody and my sister's face just popped up in my mind. i hope she's not reading this. she's getting married this august. its fast forwarded instead of get married on november. Happiness to someone might not be a happiness for the others.

Ironicly enough. That you are reaching out to your fellow mates but one of your family back slided. One of your family is missing. That's hurts me.

Last year i always cry over my finance. This year, not anymore. I'm crying over my family salvation. Its way more difficult. I'm weeping again.

T____T cyndy sedih... huhuhu..

Well, i just spent 20 mins to blog this. My mood is terrible. Still waiting for miracles and keep confessing the Word. Tomorrow i want to smile again.

emo playlist

2009-07-29T16:57:00.002+08:00

So, here's my emo playlist at the moment:
1. Jadi SepertiMu - TW Youth
2. Magnificent - Hillsong
3. My Life your Song - Annabel Soh & CHC Band
4. God of My Forever - Alison yap & CHC Band
5. Tinggikan DiriMu - GMB
6. Allah yang Setia - GMB
7. Dalamnya kasihMu Bapa - TW

dont be emo, be STYLO.

Animation

2009-05-06T15:08:00.003+08:00

Among the 6 modules, this project is the most completed one.

Graphic Design

2009-04-22T00:37:00.005+08:00

Yuke Sasmitra's class, graphic design project. Tomorrow is my presentation day, gonna be awesome. Can't write so much now :( Still amazingly, God is Good! Life is good! Hallelujah!

Animation Progress

2009-04-16T23:49:00.002+08:00

3dsmax is always fun :) sweet!

50

2009-04-08T01:10:00.003+08:00

I must say this. i love cell group ministry :) today had a power pack leader's meeting at JW with Pst Kong. I always love to worship God with all the leaders, fully recharged!

live by faith and not by sight. i can see 50 people...

HUAKAKAKAKAKAK!

2009-04-05T23:32:00.003+08:00

ok, you can start vomiting now. LOL.

Wishing Wire E-newsletter

2009-04-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

A volunteer work for school for Make-a-Wish: Wishing Wire E-newsletter. click here
Icons by Sabrina Lim Lay Peng
Design by Cyndy Messah ^.^
Supervised by Kelvino Widagdo
Lecturer In Charge: Cheng Ming Chong

School Works

2009-04-01T00:29:00.003+08:00

Hello yello, just wanna update this blog with some of my school projects. enjoy!

Module: MMIA ~ CD-ROM Interactive Interface

Module: Drawing ~ Running Cycle

25 Reasons You Might Be A Hardcore Web Designer

2009-03-30T23:50:00.002+08:00

I found this on jei's facebook note. This is what i feel as a freelance web designer so far. Very true. Very very true. I hope my clients read it.

You’ve had a client that thought they knew more about design than you.
Your clients pay you for your professional expertise and skill, yet you’ve run into one of ‘those’ clients, that refuses to take the advice from the very person he/she is paying for advice (you).
You’ve had a client that insisted on using the font “Papyrus,” and you had to hold in your barf as you prepped it [the design] for printing.
You’ve requested a vector logo from a client, and instead, they email you a 72 dpi image they grabbed from a website.
You’ve used typography as a texture.
You don’t have a favorite font because you love “Typography.” Not Fonts. Choosing a favorite font would be like choosing a favorite child, it’s just wrong.
You collect as many free stuffs from the interwebs as you can on your hard drive, hoping that one day, that cool project will come along that you can actually use some cool shit on.
You’d rather have a free font than a free gallon of gas.
It’s hard to talk about frustrations at your job with a group of friends because they have no idea what “Vector” or “DPI” is, just to name a couple.
You’ve had a client ask you to “Make the logo bigger.”
You’ve had a client that insists on “filling up the space.”
You’ve learned to over-price web design projects because most clients are more picky about their websites than a high school girl picking out a prom dress.
You feel like you’re “On Call” half of the time because clients procrastinate so much.
You know keyboard shortcuts that require 4 fingers.
You’ve lost hours of work because an application crashed, and you had to start over from scratch because you were in the “zone” and forgot to save. Basically, you were having so much fun being creative that saving was the last thing on your mind at the time.
You’ve “Live-Traced” something.
You spend more hours per week looking at CSS showcase sites than you do at the gym.
The only thing that would make you happier than the demise of IE6 is world peace.
You’ve done everything but give up a body part to talk a client out of a “Flash Intro.” Yeah. I said it. Flash Intro. Sad, so so sad. (goes along with #2)
You have enough fonts on your hard drive to last you for: 1 font per day for about a decade, give or take a year or two.
You know, explicitly, what a “Flourish” is.
You worry about negative space as much as the content area.
You get phone calls from friends and family members on a regular, sometimes annoyingly-frequent basis, wanting your services for free or extremely cheap. (and the “portfolio” line makes you want to throw something across the room)
You’ve had a client that wants a website they can “update” on their own, but doesn’t know shit about websites.
You’re never more than 99% happy with your final product because you believe that EVERYTHING can be improved upon. (especially with those tight-deadline projects)

-Jay Hilgert

You are the big person

2009-03-29T01:01:00.005+08:00

Again Pst. Phil preached about faith. I do remember about what he preached when i was a new comers back then, he said that TRIAL PURIFIES OUR FAITH. and today he mentioned again that THE PURPOSE OF TRIAL IS TO MAKE YOU A BIGGER PERSON.

With trials, i will never be the same again. Even God has set my purpose when i was in my mom's wombs. He knows my name, even He numbered every single hair i have :) and we will know our purpose, when we encountered God, when we know who we are in Christ. As simple as that man :) Another thing i learned, even God believes in me, even when I don't believe myself will get through it. Joyce Meyer tweets, she said, God is not looking for our ABILITY, but our AVAILABILITY instead.

You are the big person. God loves you :) Night.

Psalm 37:3

2009-03-25T03:29:00.005+08:00

This is from my quite time on 18 March 2009. I'm changing my quite time method like Pst. Phil Pringle's blog. I love his blog man... Just contemplate on a verse, break it down into line upon line, or phrase upon phrase, just elaborate and flow with what Holy Spirit prompted me. Quite tough thou. But fun! Our christian life,,our walk with God have to be creative and colorful. ehehe.

YOU ARE THE LEADER

2009-03-08T12:00:00.001+08:00

# The 6 most important words: "I admit I made a mistake."
# The 5 most important words: "You did a good job."
# The 4 most important words: "What is your opinion."
# The 3 most important words: "If you please."
# The 2 most important words: "Thank you."
# The 1 most important word: "We"
# The least important word: "I"

taken from here

kill the flesh kill the flesh

2009-03-07T10:26:00.003+08:00

today's activity started with prayer :) eh eh, i pasted what pst kong and ko yohandi preached :)

"it requires 3 week to break a habit, and 3 weeks to form a new habit"
"make every single day count"

new room :)

2009-03-04T23:24:00.003+08:00

hello. finally i moved house from peace center to serangoon central. the room is clean, my owner is very kind, she always mops my room every single day @.@ internet wise, there were a lot of unsecured wifi connection that i can connect to. hoho. ok, this friday i have animation submission =.="

God is good. Keep pressing on!

nice article for web designer

2009-02-25T01:18:00.002+08:00

6 Reasons Why Designers Should Code:
Better XHTML
Better SEO
Better Accessibility
Better Left Side
Better Communication
Better Design

Somehow i found this article man. Being a designer is not only designing aesthetically but knowing the technical side of a this cyber world (apa coba bahasa gw. lol). This is what i learnt from church too, by being good in what i love to do and push it to the fullest. I'm not in the mood in designing web right now and currently i have a demanding client =.= haha. okok, never mind. need to continue doing project again.

heeee? i'll be moving to serangoon, in 4 days time? =.=" GAWAT BELOM PACKING =.=""

aih aih

2009-02-23T00:42:00.002+08:00

tmr 2 website designs gotta be ~~thrown away~~ completed before 6pm. how could it be done? lol. i want to sleep until ~~8am~~ 5am. let see... if on 5am i'm able to wake up ~~miraculously~~.
Let the weak say i am strong.. hohoho

2 legged walking cycle draft

2009-02-18T01:07:00.003+08:00

today's drawing class @ classical animation studio! still need to touch up the line works and the consistency of the body parts, but yet the result was satisfying and fulfilling :) i may say that this class is my favorite module in this semester :)

speaking the word

2009-02-16T02:40:00.005+08:00

i'm transferring photo files to my laptop and it been 3 hours and it doesn't seems gonna end soon :( while waiting, i'll just continuing the story from my previous post, an emo post =.= sharing some thoughts that God has prompted me these days. yes, its overwhelmed me this week, act pitiful while knowing that God is able to do more than what i can imagine. somehow what ishak wrote in his blog is true. it is just simply don't care. meaning don't let my focus on that problem, just simply look upon the Lord, look upon the things that takes me forward.

Once again, speaking the Word is the key to conquer these tough days of mine. when i anxiety comes, just speak out, "don't be afraid, for I'm with you, don't be dismayed, for I am your God". when i feel so tired, again i will say, "God is my rest. Come to Him, all of my burden and heavy laden, He'll give me rest". pretty simple. you can do it too.

Hmm, i need more patience. Endure more cyndy. A little longer.

i know i can't change the circumtances, but i can talk to God

2009-02-10T22:29:00.005+08:00

I called her and heard all the things she said. How could it be. My eyes in tears and couldn't breath easily. Contradicting, in my mouth i kept saying yes, but deep down in my heart I'm tortured, I'm hurt. I can't stand anymore. Just let me face my mistakes and problems, like i've been through so far, God. Being insensitive and back stabbed, knowing people are talking behind my back.,which isn't true. Or just let me feel how nafa will kick me out for the sake of unpaid tuition fees. Or maybe by walking around Singapore with my luggages and knowing I couldn't afford any room and being homeless. Test me on these things, God, but not on this. I weeps bitterly, God, so bitter until i could forget all of my fears, being stoned and i have no idea at all how to get a rid of it. God, my eyes are reddish, i wanted to cry but there are no tears left for me to shed. God, how am i supposed to do?

what does it mean?

2009-02-06T10:50:00.001+08:00

I will not bother the yours kamu, aku soybean cake is very busy people
you eccentric person which have confessed to recognize.

hmm, very chim english. hoho

ganti banner ah

2009-02-05T00:36:00.003+08:00

setelah bertahun2 pake banner yg disebelah ini, akhirnya cyndy memutuskan mengganti menjadi banner yg kalian liat di atas ini. halah.

Built To Last - Melee LOL XD

2009-02-03T11:17:00.003+08:00

dapet dari swannie (link) LOL LOL LOL!

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.
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IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Holy - Israel & New Breed
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Sobat - Padi
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Don't Sleep Away This Night - Glenn Fredly
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
How Great You Are - Maranatha Praise Band
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Timeless - Sergio Mendes feat. India Arie
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Kau Sangat Ku Cinta - Franky Sihombing
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I'm Yours - Chris Cendana
WHAT IS 2+2?
Take A Hold - Christian City Church
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
When The Lights Burn Out - Chris Cendana
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
My Simple Song - GMB
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
I Adore - Hillsong
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
For All You've Done - Planetshakers
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Because I'm Forgiven - Philips, Craig % Dean
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Butterfly - Mariah Carey
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Mama - Boyz 2 Men
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
How Deep is Your Love - Bee Gees
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Take It All - Hillsong
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Janjimu Seperti Fajar
WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Fixing a Broken Heart - Obsession Indecent
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Come Holy Spirit - City Harvest Church
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Sedih Tak Berujung - Glenn Fredly
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Breakaway - Kelly Clarkson
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Kejujuran Hati - Kerispatih
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Girl From Ipanema - Papa
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
September - Earth Wind & Fire
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Innocent Again - Switchfoot
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Sukacita Surga - True Worshippers
WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Sanctuary - City Harvest Church
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Built To Last - Melee

my future room! XD

2009-02-02T22:44:00.003+08:00

hore. aku mau pindah lhoo ke serangoon. pengen cepet2 pindah =.=

(+)
1. murah!
2. deket ama serangoon mrt, hanya 5-7 menit saja.
3. depan hdb ini ada bus 147 yang direct ke NAFA.
4. banyak makanan2 enak (kata chen)
5. ownernya baik, mau ngajarin aku bahasa mandarin ^.^
6. deket ama swimming complex bo! waaaaaaa.. asik bisa renang lagi!

(-)
1. jauh ke city, apalagi ke jurong west T___T
2. ngga boleh bangun siang, berabe ntar.

sisi negatipnya jauh kalah ama sisi positipnya. next month will be another journey and challenge. mecahin rekor pindah, berarti udah 9 kali pindah selama di singapore @.@ haaalelujah!

online portfolio interface

2009-01-26T01:09:00.006+08:00

http://sayacyndy.site40.net

ahai. its just a glimpse of my online portfolio. i keep it simple and tried to work out my typography. yap, at least this week i'm pretty productive. now i'm still reading the javascript and PHP books i borrowed from NLB. hope will finish it soon. i 'll let you define my "soon" XP

hahahaha geje ah

2009-01-24T00:10:00.003+08:00

just calculating all of my expenses for another challenging month ahead. gonna move to another place soon. i've found a room around serangoon MRT. somehow i just felt happy at first bcos this room is the cheapest room i could find so far. hahahaha. so if its confirm, i'll break my record again, cos i've been moving around singapore since i came here. something to proud of you see! =)) 1. kallang - 2. aljunied - 3. bugis - 4. aljunied - 5. bugis - 6. toa payoh - 7. woodlands - 8. braddell - and currently i'm staying at peace centre (9th). Hahaha. i'm pretty cool in movin from a place to places. LOL. If i remembered about the journey i've been thru here i can't stop thanking God in how He provided me even until now. I couldn't count His blessings @.@ I'm very excited about tomorow, the day after tomorow, next month, the following month, until the day I'll still confess that God is good, God never forsaken me, I'm more than conqueror! I'm not affraid. If God can do it for me last time, He will do it again and again. be blessed and don't let your circumstances overwhelmed you, don't let it steal your joy. keep positive, be cool!

@.@

2009-01-16T23:50:00.002+08:00

Cyndy is trusting the unchanging God. Raise up Cyndy, be strong, be courageous.

school rox

2009-01-14T16:44:00.003+08:00

School rocks man. I'm in love with The Audio Video Production (AVP) Studio and The Animation Studio. NAFA upgraded its facility and a bunch of iMac with capturing system for animation were provided. Its so so so so sooooooooo awesomeee... hahahaha... just borrowed some books from NLB, thanks for nyunyu's card. so gotta read those now. bye bloggy.

2009-01-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

forgiveness doesn't come that easy. God, may i have Your mercy?

deo volente

2009-01-10T02:16:00.004+08:00

fyuh. ive been sending sms, resume to several vacancy that i found online. til now i couldn't find a parttime or freelance job that is suitable for me. i have tight timing every week and most of them wanted me to work during weekend =.= gosh.. i do hope by this week i receive any good news. haha.

here come again a verse.

isaac's priority on Genesis 26:25
"And he builded an altar there, and called upon the name of the Lord, and pitched his tent there: and there Isaac's servants digged a well."

See, God will always come first. I'm the servant of God, my responsibility is to serve my master, and His responsibility is to take care of me.

amen?

uwouwoo!

2009-01-05T11:03:00.001+08:00

Hi. After contemplating for couple of days, God shown me this verse again and again.

Matthew 5:13-16
13 “You are the salt of the earth; but if the salt loses its flavor, how shall it be seasoned? It is then good for nothing but to be thrown out and trampled underfoot by men.
14 “You are the light of the world. A city that is set on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.

so based on this verse, i wrote my goals for 2009. ok, i bet ya did yours, but if you didn't, go and write it down now! =)

SPIRITUAL LIFE
- Bible reading (Let's finish up the new testament first ^^)
- Bring 2 people to church and seeing them receiving Christ.
- More equipped by bible study, at least 3 seasons.
- Fasting once a week.
- 15 people in my connect group by the end of this year.
- Raise 1 leader in my connect group.

FAMILY AND FRIENDS
- be more attentive, sensitive, caring and loving ^^

HEALTH
- Gain weight 2kgs.
- Exercise at least 2 times a week.
- Be more stylish ^^

EMOTIONAL, PSYCHOLOGICAL GROWTH
- Be more serious (its time to reduce my lame jokes to people around me =.=)

EDUCATION, INTELLECTUAL, PROFESSIONAL
- Minimal 3 A marks.
- No C or below that.
- Read inspirational and leadership books (once in 2 months).
- Have a good part time job, a secure one.
- Improve English, learn 1 word everyday.
- Learn Mandarin.
- Join at least 2 competitions.
- 10 minutes before rule.
- my own online portfolio by next February.
- go to national library at least once a month.

MATERIAL
- Financial stability.
- Fulfill building fund pledge by the end of April 2009.
- a hyper terminal desktop PC
- Wacom

LEISURE
- I wanna go home and treat myself a good food, good places to visit, good friends to meet at last but not least, meeting my family. that's more than enough for my leisure this year. i'll be back home on May 2009 ^____^

So comparing with my goals last year, i keep it simple, doable, but still i have to stretch my faith to achieve something greater this year. By gain experience thru working, reading books, join competitions will help me to enhance my talent.

i need to be ontime too. haih. bcos of this many things occured that i regreted T.T ok, this year gonna be better. financial stability, what ive been prayin for so long, i need to conquer this! lastly, i need to reduce all of my lame jokes, be more serious. i'll still be an active, sanguine and humorous cyndy, but i'll lower it down ^^

i hope i didn't missed anything. overall, from the verses i mentioned before, cyndy will do her best be the salt and the light. I'm the LIGHT OF THE CITY! uwouwoo!

gegegegegege

2008-12-27T13:03:00.003+08:00

this month was fantastic. i'm working in 2 different places. in a design company and as usual the place of foods :) scotts lounge, only every friday thou. so every friday will be very tiring, cos i started my day on 7.30 in the morning, 9am-6pm at the office, rushed to orchard, had a quick dinner, quick make up and reported at 7.30 sharp at the lounge and finished working at 12am-1am. came home checking e-mails, facebook and online for awhile. when prayer time comes, it was always around 2-3am in the morning. but indeed God is my rest. after a long long week, and moreover all things were accumulated on friday, prayer time is the time i'm collecting my energy together again ^^

right now i'm in love with flash animation, web 2.0, css, xml, i'm in love with web designing man.. =) i started to join a web designer forum, browsing thru the web and seeing others works. there are some design i've made recently for my online portfolio website interface, still enhancing it..

here some pretty cool websites i found:
http://www.blackestate.co.nz/
http://www.designcommission.com/contact/
http://www.davidmihm.com/blog/
http://www.arcinspirations.com/kobe/

i'm gonna make something like that someday ^^

things to do list

2008-12-22T21:34:00.003+08:00

what a short holiday. i wanted to do these things but apparently my holiday time couldn't fits them all.

study 3dsmax
re-install my laptop
re-arrange my room. haha. almost impossible. those cupboards are too heavy =.="
start building YA zone website
ha, design my own personal online portfolio!
national library!
watch 10 litre of tears
watch prison break

today i was so discouraged man. but i chose to believe, activating my faith instead of fear.
joel osteen rocks. thx God.

ps: 2009 goals and 2008 goals recap will be posted probably before next week. make sure you are preparing yours too. ^^

...

2008-12-09T22:32:00.004+08:00

ole ole ole. result telah diketahui.
akibat telat and kaga ngumpul CD. bginilah graphic design ane.
gpa 3.3
bersyukur cyndy bersyukur.

Graphic Design: C
Animation: B
Drawing: B
History: B
Desktop Publishing: A
Digital Photomedia: A
Visual Studies: A

striving for the better marks next semester. jindy bisa. i've got the word of truth, i've got the power of prayer, i've got the Holy Spirit. ayo jindy bersyukur selalu ~

dag dig dug duar

2008-12-08T23:16:00.001+08:00

result... where are you....
T________________T

cyndy is workin

2008-12-03T00:42:00.003+08:00

yesterday i started working at above1. it was boring at first thou. i'm working on 3 flash banners and the deadline is tmr. hehe. overall it was great. nice and friendly colleagues... hmm, what else... haa, good and cheap food nearby... hahaha ^^

anyway. my OKTO channel ident was chosen for the final piece. thanks Jesus for this opportunity to shine in the marketplace. wahaha. so, i do hope my channel ident will be broadcasted nationally in 1-2 months time. and monique's was chosen too. i knew both of us will make it through. and we did.

looking forward for tons of exciting events, christmas celebrations, new years eve, my long gone friends visits and much much more blessings that is yet to come from the Lord.

lastly. just wanna say that i'm so honoured to be a part of S43, a place of talents, creative people and a "caring centre". hahahaha. so proud of YAzone and its leadership. "this is just the beginning." if ko bernard said the sub zone will go to 300 people, i just want to see my connect group grow to 15 people next year :) and... i thank God for city harvest church. this church is the one that made me endure in times of adversity, in a moment when i feel like giving up, when i feel homesick especially. haha, not bad, i have my second home. xmas i'm coming.

ECP cycling

2008-11-30T00:19:00.005+08:00

ok. see this pic below. i think i'm doing pretty good on my gaining weight program. see, i've put on chubs there. hahahahaha.

last friday i went to ECP and cycling with 2E fellas. walking over to ECP from the bus stop took 30 minutes man. only me, reynie, jose, germs, jie kai, and teo went there T.T li xiao, jia li went back to china, moniq was working, and the rest were nowhere. hmm, didn't know where are they exactly. previously class rep often arrange an outing for our class but i have never been joining any of them. i was working and attending church meeting T.T yeah. finally.

me and reynie. rented a bicycle for 10 bucks (for each bicycle) >,<"
reynie wore a wrong costume. long jeans. =.="

the coolest friend. germs shi jin ^^
middle fingered at me bcos i took this photo. what's your problem xiao jie? ^^

teo, trying not to be rude like germs. that's a good finger dude =)

and lastly, FOOD......
see see see see above man...
watch your saliva before its dripping over your keyboard...
chicken wings, you tiao, tahu, vegetable, carrot cake, sotong, sting ray, chicken satay with the peanut sauce, lontong...

outing with a good food is a must.

No food, No happiness
- Cyndy Theresia Messah

dagang obat

2008-11-27T18:08:00.005+08:00

yosh... i'm recovering.. still coughing when i'm talking and laughing to loud, when i'm walking to fast =.=" haiyah...

ini obat yang jindy konsumsi. ada 1 yang direkomen ama menny.

#1. rasanya kecut...
haha, trus tambahin air anget lagi... tp masi kecut.. >,<"

#2 ini obat teraneh i've ever seen. masa ada tulisan poisonnya? =.="

by His stripes i'm healed ^^

jindy lagi sakit nih T_T

2008-11-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

hualah, sakit bgt tenggorokan ini. uhuk uhuk. tissue udah numpuk bgt di tempat sampah, ingus ngga brenti2 keluarnya. rada pusing skrg (tapi masi sempet nge-blog)

ini emang udah gw prediksi sih, mana di expo full AC, dinginnnn bgt, mana sepatu baru bikin kakiku terluka.. ugh.. kurang tidur.. inilah akibatnya nerima project di kala asia conference... haih, ngga wise deh waktu itu, kirain bisa ngerjain projectnya dalam waktu 2 jam udah beres. tapi ngga mikirin kalo client minta revisi ini itu. Skrg numpuk jadilah penyakit ini. lemes... T_T

learn to say no. tapi gmn dnk, kan musti ngejar setoran nih .. >,<

haih. wanna write something about asia conference. susah nih nyeritainnya. terlalu keren ah.

hmmm, just keep me in prayer. cyndy harus sembuh! :) amen

3D Character Design | Cyndy 2E

2008-11-18T11:28:00.004+08:00

Beginner only lah.. It is the hardest part of my multimedia life in NAFA. I need to improve my 3Dsmax skill man... And hope i can improve my computer too. Amen!

OKTO channel ident | Cyndy 2E

2008-11-18T11:01:00.005+08:00

Well. a combined project OKTO channel ident. thanks to all the lecturers, levi, yuke, my classmate 2E, chiki for your computer. hahaha. adobe after effect is great! :)

asia conference

2008-11-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

huah. sleepy and tired. and i haven't do any preparation for my presentation tmr. i just couldn't let my mind think about another things but asia conference.

and today i went to service 4 and indonesian svc, as usual. God speak thru Pst Zhuang prayer.

God, we want to cling to you, when the things are changing, people are changing, a problems changes into another problems, but we want to look upon you, the UNCHANGING GOD. The God we know that is faithful and true. The God who keep His promises.

this 2 words, unchanging God. God never fail to impress me until now =)

yea, keep supporting our sisters, evi, the beauty pageant. ndi and dinda the basketballers.
i'm so proud of my sisters. huehuehue.

another comment(s) =)

2008-11-14T14:08:00.004+08:00

haha. people were so concern about my church. the latest 5 comments i received today is the newest. here you go, link

the greater thing we want to achieve, the more obstacles we'll going to face and others may not happy about it. hahaha.

bosan

2008-11-14T11:59:00.002+08:00

bosan aku bosan. haduh haduh. sendiri sepi sunyi, mau nonton tipi tapi kasian roommate masi bobo.
bosan aku bosan. msn ngga ada yang online.
bosan aku bosan. baju udah di setrika. udah nyuci baju. ngga ada kerjaan.

mari makan.
bener ngga ndi? vi?

hello

2008-11-12T01:12:00.004+08:00

assessment is over, so what comin up next? asia conference, work, christmas, and of course, a long holiday without my family here at singapore. i'm expecting for a happy and exciting holiday. back then i was working diligently and right now i want for a better life and enjoying every single day of my life and do what God wants me to do.

aaaaa... cyndy just need 6 more months to be back home. i do really miss my family. i'd do anything for that, the saddest thing is, i just couldn't recognise my brother's voice right now. he has grown up and his voice has changed. its been 1,5 years here but i'll endure. once again i have to sacrifice my flesh and think positively at least, i can serve God for asia conference, christmas, S43 of course, hopefully i'll be able to save up, and fulfill my building fund asap, i will be happy. haha. like pastor kong said, from faith to faith, from glory to glory. i've run this far, if God is with me, who will come againts me?

anyway, my goals for next year is on the progress. so far i'm great with my goals for this year. all i can say is, WELL DONE CYNDY. haha. not bad ^^ i want to see my connect group will grow to 10-15 ppl.. S43 will grow and grow... huehuehueheue.. 40-50 ppl next year, with God all things are possible. so many wish list in my mind, but cyndy, bear it for a moment, i put God's kingdom first and i knew that God will provide me, not what do i want, but what do i need ...

i miss you dad, mum, ka ronny, ka nova, jermy, all the foods, all the beaches and places, they are truly my everything that i long to see ...

photofunia.com

2008-10-29T20:31:00.005+08:00

haha, these pics below just made my day. i hope it'll brighten up your day, too.

"hey cyndy, you'd better be my girl or i'll drink alcohol for the rest of my life and i'll use voodoo doll to make you fall in love with me !!"

(geje #1)

"grandma, i wish you are happy in Hollywood pursuing your dream as an actress..."

"yeah, i'm cyndy and i'm the prisoner of azkaban!"

Girl: "dear, i thought that it is supposed to be marilyn monroe?"
Guy: "yea you were right, but how come?"

"hmm, i think i saw her when i was having my vacation in singapore... ah, i knew it, i saw her at al-jilani and she was eating prata like a horse."
(like a horse??? =.=")
(geje #2)

"don't miss it, rev. dr. cyndy messah is in the house. blind can see, lame can walk, and deaf can hear! halelujah!"

"have you seen my wife?"
(geje #3)

this 100 bucks note is weird, where's benjamin franklin???

bersih pangkal?

2008-10-27T09:55:00.003+08:00

abis 7 hari puasa, i know how much shud i give to building fund this year. ajik ajik. whatever He guides, He provides. hohoho.

pagi ini. cyndy bangun jam 6.45. makan roti and segelas susu. saat teduh. jogging di lantai sepuluh. lalu mandi. wah, segarrr.. huahuahua...

tadi waktu masuk kamar mandi, ada puntung rokok beserta abu rokoknya bertebaran di lantai =.=" housemate gw kebetulan berasal dari beberapa negara dan profesi. kebetulan sang housemate itu berprofesi sebagai kupu-kupu malam. apa itu kupu-kupu malam? tanya ama peterpan =.="

padahal udah dikasi tau lho ama ownernya ngga boleh ngerokok di dalem rumah. huhuhu. pengen gw laporin ama owner nya. hati ini menjadi keki. lalu lalu lalu lalu, waktu lagi sabunan, aku dijamah oleh roh kudus..... wahahaa.. diingetin ama sermonnya papi kong, katanya kita harus be kind sama semua orang, even yang unbeliever. Yesus ama gaul ama tax collector, prostitute, dll. wehehe. for the Son of Man came to save the sinners. what a cool God i have.

yak. ambil kain pel dan mulai mengepel. aku senang kamar mandiku bersih ^^ cleaning the bathroom only took 5-10 minutes wad... ndak papa wes. kan ini rumahku, aku mau belajar supaya rumahku bersih. bersih pangkal apa ya? hua, aku lupa =.="
syalalalalala...

mari mengerjakan tugas ^^

5 more kg

2008-10-21T00:03:00.002+08:00

minggu ini sermon pst kong bener2 nempel di otak. gmn ngga, wong ikut 3 kali service lho. rajin bgt gw. hmph, aku mau naik 5 kilo lagi! arise n build padahal waktunya fast n pray, huhuhuhuhu. walopun fasting, pasti berat badanku nambah.

menghibur diri yang sedang gundah =.="

cyndy got a her twins! =.="

2008-10-20T16:03:00.003+08:00

found this photo at mikki's facebook. do i look like her? frankly i can't "fold" my leg like that hor. hahaha.

wall-to-wall conversation on facebook

2008-10-08T22:12:00.002+08:00

comment2an di facebooknya ishak ampe bo huat padahal kita2 pada online di msn.
ada-ada saja~

xoxo

2008-10-06T00:25:00.006+08:00

hi guys. tellin' u what ive been doin this week. another day of joy and challenge. my sister came last saturday and she went back yesterday early in the morning. she's a lot chubbier now =) lovely sister. xoxo

school was great, able to manage it well. was so affraid about my idea for okto channel ident, but thank God, it was approved. anyway, my life as a freelance designer, well, another tight deadline as usual T.T but it was fun and numbers of things i've leanrt. great opportunity to expand my social networking. i found this job from my church mate. hoho.

indeed cellgroup is very important. You guys won't regret joining cellgroup, not only transformed by the Word of God but another unexpected opportunity upon opportunity you may experience from it. i love my church mates, i do S43!

haha. will continue someday. peace.

I want an Ephesians 5 Husband

2008-09-30T12:29:00.003+08:00

haha. gile ni group. nemuin di facebook temen. ah, bisa2 saja ya.. hahahha.. aku juga mau dnk ephesians 5 husband. kamu mau? ^^

Ephesians 5:25-33:

"Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her, that He might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, that He might present her to Himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish. So husbands ought to love their own wives as their own bodies; he who loves his wife loves himself. For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as the Lord does the church. For we are members of His body, of His flesh and of His bones. 'For this reason a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh.' This is a great mystery, but I speak concerning Christ and the church. Nevertheless let each one of you in particular so love his own wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband."

doa cebelum bobo

2008-09-25T02:06:00.004+08:00

Dear faithful and caring God,
Thanks so much for a new day. Lord i just pray that in this situation i'll have the power to endure, greater faith and capacity to cope all the things that i've to face nowadays onwards. I pray that i'll be able to make You smile over me, be able to accomplish what You want me to do. Yes God bcos Your joy is my strength! Day and night, bad or good times, help me to be rooted in Your promises. And God I just pray i'll not lack of anything cos You are my provider. I pray for another job opportunity or any other ways that you've planned to bless me through, the best is yet to come and breakthrough is on its way! Help me not to lose heart, to be faithful, for in due season i shall reap with joy! there will be no weapon that formed againts me shall prevail.
In Jesus name, my strenght, my provider, my shield, my healer!
Amen...

hello yello

2008-09-22T17:10:00.002+08:00

first day of schooling. lots of things to catch up man. my clients wants me to do pictures gallery, i needa re-open my notes about xml and actionscript, again. huhuhuhu. it doesn't mean that u're a design student, all u need is design the interface only, programming thingy will be a great necesarry in the real world. yea right. i was hoping that i'm not gonna touch about that irritating programming, huff. so sick about mono type face.

var myXML:XML = new XML(); myXML.ignoreWhite=true; myXML.load("photos.xml"); myXML.onLoad = function(success) { if (success) { var myImage = myXML.firstChild.childNodes; for (i=0; i ...................
T.T

oiya, lagi browsing2 di detik.com, trus ngeliat berita ini. Tau Julia Perez alias JuPe kan? kasian dya diteror ama suster bunting. LOL. ada-ada aja...

Julia Perez Diteror Suster Bunting
Pebriansyah Ariefana - detikMovie

Jakarta - Puasa tidak dijadikan Julia Perez untuk bermalas-malasan. Artis yang akrab disapa Jupe itu tetap syuting film terbarunya di bulan Ramadan. Jupe mengaku dikejar-kejar suster bunting saat syuting berlangsung.

Film terbaru Jupe berjudul 'Hantu Suster Bunting' garapan Nayato. Di sana ia berperan sebagai Sarah, seorang suster muda yang berpacaran dengan seorang dokter di sebuah rumah sakit. Sarah curiga kalau pacarnya selingkuh dengan seorang suster di rumah sakit hingga hamil.

Sarah pun memutuskan membunuh suster itu. Namun masalah baru datang, Sarah terus diteror sosok hantu suster yang sedang hamil. Suster itu biasa di sebut sebagai 'Suster Bunting'.

"Gue dikejar-kejar sosok hantu suster bunting di film itu, serem banget," ujar Jupe saat dihubungi detikhot via telepon genggamnya, Senin (22/9/2008) siang.

Filmnya sendiri sudah mulai syuting sejak sebulan yang lalu. Jadi selama puasa Jupe stop bernyanyi demi konsentarasi berakting. Meski syuting setiap hari, ia mengaku tidak lelah. Katanya justru tidak terasa puasa sambil bekerja.

Dalam film ini, imej seksi tetap melekat dalam diri Jupe. Ia tetap beradegan seksi di film terbarunya itu. Untuk melakukan adegan seksi itu, Jupe memilih malam hari sebagai waktunya untuk beradegan seksi.

"Siang itu kan puasa, jadi aku memilih malam hari untuk beradegan seksi. Nggak masalah kan," kata istri dari Damien itu seraya tertawa. (ebi/eny)

Jupe.. jupe... *geleng-geleng* ada-ada saja...

new linked friends

2008-09-18T23:52:00.008+08:00

akirnya sempet juga nge-link blog temen2. haih, biasa orang sibuk. wekekeke. they are:

YA zone - City Harvest Church

Menny Setiawan

Ishak Budiman

Jesslynne Ruslie

Alderina Gracia aka Sharon

See them in my right bottom side of my blog! mampir2 saja, mereka lucu, imut, dan menggemaskan ^.^ mari ramaikan dunia per-blog-an. hohoho!

rest

2008-09-18T23:52:00.003+08:00

hi, dapet dari blognya suigion anderson nih. senang sekali membacanya ^^ >link<

MATTHEW 11:28

NKJV version
Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Contemporary English Version
If you are tired from carrying heavy burdens, come to me and I will give you rest. Take the yoke I give you. Put it on your shoulders and learn from me. I am gentle and humble, and you will find rest. This yoke is easy to bear, and this burden is light.

now look at the "The Message" version, it uses plain/easy-to-understand English.

"The Message" version
"Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of GRACE. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly."

^.^

eat properly. pray fervently. exersice regularly

2008-09-16T18:00:00.002+08:00

yesterday leader meeting was awesome! i'm so amazed by New Life Church at Taiwan, although they have limited resources, but yet they are fruitful and growing tremendously! wow.

inspired from that, i began to see my self, in what area i'm lacking of. i managed to create my new schedule. a quite hectic schedule. now i spend more time to exercise, proper meal time and have 6-7 hours of sleep a day. nothing can afford a healthy body. dr. rev. phil pringle said, "exercise time is as important as my prayer time!" yep, our body is the temple of God, take a good care to yours too.

eat properly. pray fervently. exersice regularly.

isaiah 30:18

2008-09-12T17:51:00.003+08:00

assessment is over. i slept 10 hours to pay back my restless a day before. just wanna inform you my recent story... :)

hmm. on march i went to donate my blood. well, nothing happened and it seems all things are right. and 5 days ago i went to donate my blood again. when the nurse check my name at the system, it says that i've been infected by hepatitis B virus :(

before they put every donated blood in blood bank, they will test it out first to avoid every virus, etc to double check that the blood is acceptable. well, thank God i donated my blood that day, if i were not, i couldn't imagine having this disease without knowing it at all! =)

and today i went to doctor and had a blood test for hepatitis A, B and liver function. in 2-3 days I'll receive the result and hope everything will be alright. rhema for today, "Blessed are all those who wait for Him, who expect and look and long for Him." hehehe...

ps: next week i'll be starting my connect group meeting. guys pls take note, it'll be at ikha's room, as usual. it might be at friday around 7 oclock =)

new couple(s) from YA zone!

2008-08-29T21:06:00.006+08:00

Isaac: S | Cyndy: 4 | Dinda: 3

S43!

hi. just a flash quick news from cyndy =) well, next week is my submission week, torturing week -.-" it'll be very challenging! i want to keep myself avail for You. This month, CG 17 - SVC 24. yes, we can!

another happy story came from my spiritual sister =) congrats koyon n cecil. pastor kong advice last meeting strongly impacted my zone, YA zone =D some friend of mine getting attached this month. ckckckck. well, i think thats all. i pray for you all nafa students, excel in your study, excel in your ministry. syaalalalalalala...

koyon n cecil...
wedeh...

nobody is perfect

2008-08-19T13:00:00.002+08:00

Nobody is perfect. Amen? even there's no church is perfect, no cell group is perfect, and from all of this we know that ONLY our God is perfect. This imperfectness made God's power there and completed all of our weakness.

I began to see my self, what area in my life is need to be corrected, and the only way to see it is by asking my friends opinion and build myself again. thanks friends. i do really need to overcome this. i prayed hard during morning prayer.

recently i'm so focused in reaching out to people, praying, do my assignments, and read books. but then i feel that i'm lacking in communicate. to be frank, well, i do communicate, but not to even my closest friends. i don't have the capacity to handle all of my friends that i need to follow up, that i need to correct. i dunno whether its my problem in capacity or in my priority =(

1 more important things, i want to see the things through God's view. I want to have mercy to others. I have this tendency to judge people because of what they shouldn't do, a small little things that is not supposed to be a problem. Yep, what would Jesus do. Everybody has their own capacity, different capacity. and recently i expect all of my friends to have the same capacity as me. which is totally wrong man... =( because of that i got disappointed a lot. my big huge fault =( I need to learn and learn. seeing myself in their position. praying helps me a lot, God has reconcile and gave me peace...

So back again, nobody is perfect, i'm not perfect. Hmm, another God's way to brake my heart. Yes God, thank you, i'm broken and drew me closer to You. all i want is holding on God's hand, so i can acknowledge his path, trust Him with all my heart and lean to His strength (proverbs 3:5-6)

haih, i've spent my half an hour to blog T.T

hulalalalalalala

2008-08-16T10:39:00.002+08:00

encouraged to blog after reading my friend's blog. hmm, these 3 days i've managed to wake up early and came to morning prayer. haha. when i pray, the whole day seems so powerful like never before, although at the previous night i slept around 1-2 and woke up at 5.30 =) Cool God...

My prayer list recently are slightly the same, praying for my family, church, pray for my leader, cellgroup, connect group, friends, indonesian, singapore.. and at least at the end i prayed for myself of course. ha, realized something that i forgotten to pray for this one recently... LOL.. for future partner. LOLS. honestly, i've started praying for this since my senior high school. LOLSSSS. and thank God, Pst kong reminded me when leader's meeting to start thinking about this. he said the proper time to have marriage is between 21-25 years old... LOLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. so friends, how much time u got right now, sister? =D

Yesterday i've prayer meeting at shenny's place with mikki, michele and david. Cool, now i got more ppl praying for school =)

2008 goals check list

2008-08-08T00:22:00.003+08:00

We are arriving at month of august. Just want to recap what i've been doing to achieve all of my goals for this year. check it out. i think i'm doing pretty good this year (self praise^^) WELL DONE CYNDY! =)

SPIRITUAL LIFE
- Bible reading (waa. this one not yet. just stuck at Leviticus >,<")
- Bring 5 people to church and seeing them receiving Christ (hmm. didnt count it -.-")
- More equipped by bible study, at least 2 season (now at Christian Lifestyle, but i think surely this year will get through until the 3rd book, Victorious Living ^^)
- Joining one of ministry at city harvest church (yep! cellgroup ministry!)
- Fasting at least once/week (every tuesday! ^^)
- W394 multiply (S43!!!!!!!!!!!)
- More praying (Yeshhh!!!!)

FAMILY AND FRIENDS
- Be a good encourager to others, esp. for my family (wanna be more!!!)

HEALTH
- Gain weight 5kgs (-.- stagnant. not increasing 1 kg at all T.T)
- Do sport, swimming (wahahaha. needa to arrange time to exercise.)
- Be more stylish ^^ (wakakakakaka...)

EMOTIONAL, PSYCHOLOGICAL GROWTH
- Stay cool, less panic
- Anger management
- More sensitive
- More patience
(hmm, i think i did better to manage all those things..)

EDUCATION, INTELLECTUAL, PROFESSIONAL
- Minimal 2 A mark (Yesh!! Jesus gave me 3 As instead!!!)
- Maximal 1 C mark (T.T i got 1 D mark... huhuhu...)
- Read encourage book every 2 months (Battlefield of mind on the go...)
- Enlarging my capacity to be more excellent at my workplace (not working yet. still lookin...)
- Improve English (haha, must learn more...)
- Learn Mandarin (ni zhu zai na li? i improved a lot. wakakaka...)

MATERIAL
- Financial stability (will be there soon ^^)
- Fulfill building fund pledge by the end of March 2008 (it was fulfilled in April instead, but still Praise God!)
- Buy D-SLR camera before April 2008 (comin comin...)
- Be wisdom in every penny I spent (yep... save your pocket!!!)
- Learn more about google adsense and earn some money from it (no timeeee...)
- New phone, iPhone would be nice ^_^ (no need. i got sony ericsson already... whoohoo!)

LEISURE
- Buy Heroes DVD (i think its unnecessary ^^)
- A Trip to Malaysia (some day, i love singapore ^^)
- A Trip to Jakarta or Bandung
- Going home to Bali! It is a MUST! (God, i really want it... )
- Buy shoes (huah. couldnt find it ^^)

Cool right. I'm good, arent I? hahaha. 4 months to go! Will end this year victorious! Never say die!

huahua

2008-07-31T10:25:00.004+08:00

today i have no class =)

i went to leaders meeting, now i know how difficult to deal with people, to disciple them. how detail they are and have a high perseverance in small things. thank God for the opportunity to be involved in this ministry. share the love of God!

Galatians 6:10
Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.

watch your words

2008-07-28T17:04:00.002+08:00

today i met my brother, ronny. i was very shock. he called me during history class and said that he and his friends are at sim lim square buying sort of music equipments. right away after class i went to sim lim and met him. what i have learned today, hmm, i hope i have more patience. i met a women, a friend of my brother, her mouth is full of discourage words. i wish i can put tons of sambel in her mouth or just put a cork in her mouth. waa, can't stand it anymore. i just smiled and prayed to keep me on track. what a day. well, the happy part, finally, i met my brother. kinda rare thing for me, it just like once in a year T.T

yep, every words that came out from you could affect someone's feeling. deeply. so watch your words friends. God Bless.

yello hello

2008-07-26T11:48:00.002+08:00

hi blog. hadn't been blogging for sometime. school started since last Monday and as usual tons of assignments (but none of them have been finished yet ;p)

maybe some of u know that last week i did a plan to defer, to take a leave for a year. hmph. i love nafa ;p i love my friends, my church and all the activities along the week. just cant imagine how am i supposed to live without all these. after i discussed it with my connect group mates and my cell group leader, we plan and found a way to survive =) my mum last night get into ICU, her asthma attacked her again. huhuhu. problems comes one in a time. great... T.T yeah, satan will always disturb His daughter. but none of them shall prosper...

next week will start my cell group ministry. will attend leaders meeting and re-arrange my time management. will pray for you, you and you.

don't give up! hehehehe.

pray

2008-07-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

"Dear Lord, i hand up cyndy to Your feet. Lord, guide cyndy and give her clear instructions to follow. everyone or even cyndy may make wrong decisions but God You choose for us the best way. To defer or to continue Lord we seek You to provide the best way. There's no one greater we can turn to. whatever decision, Lord we hand up to You cos Lord, whichever way, we know You'll provide not just in financial way but in every request that is according to Your will and for good. Lord, i pray that You take control of cyndy's emotions that the Word in her will keep her rooted. Let Your Spirit be stronger than her emotions and prob she's facing. Lord, we wanna look on the positive side. That yes, no matter we got You and love ones around us to go through fire. We wanna thank You that we don't have to face all these alone. i pray that cyndy will manage this situation Your way. to be still in You. in Jesus Name, Amen!"

thank you mummy =)

buat si jelek

2008-07-22T23:44:00.002+08:00

i have nothing to say, just... no weapon that formed against me shall prosper...
:D

kungfu palawan ^^

2008-07-19T10:26:00.000+08:00

Hi guys. At last i'm able to blog. Yesterday just have a great outing in sentosa with all the newbies from nafa! really enjoy every single moment that i had with them. great to know you guys! and thank God, have given me the strength for yesterday, it was tiring man. but how many of u know that when you plan the event and it succeed, what more do you want? ^^

and today i just finished my purpose driven life, finally, this book is powerful man... i encourage you to read this book. if you really want just tell me and i will lend you mine. hehehe. share with u abit about 5 important purposes in our life.

to love God with your all heart, through Worship
to show love to others, through ministry.
to share the God's message, through worship.
to build God's family, through fellowship
to grow to maturity, through discipleship.

Anyway, we're goin to make another event, BBQ at east coast, make sure all the indonesian nafa newbies attend this outing. we'll have another great time!

God Bless You all

you'll never regret

2008-06-30T13:01:00.003+08:00

People often ask me , how 's my life have changed after saved.
hmm ... it often cracks my brain.
But i really feel very blessed since accepting Christ.
family , friends , cg members , lots and lots of blessing .
I really want to thanks God for giving me nice friends in my life !

I quoted this from my friend's blog. this is the point friends, You'll never regret accept Jesus as your savior. =)

yay yay

2008-06-25T23:30:00.004+08:00

hi hi. i do really want to blog since my birthday. but these days i really tired, hyatt really really busy, every time guests came in a big group and running all the way until evening. actually still looking for a job as a web designer. ive applied to some company but maybe God wants me to endure a bit more. recently hyatt is having a recension and cutting down all of the parttimers working hours. so needa think smart to survive, yes, praying for a new job. hauhau.

well well well, talking about my 19th birthday. as what i expected =) speechless. a day of cake. got chocolate cake from hyatt, strawberry cake from sophiaers, oreo cheese cake from my connect group, and chocolate coke cake from germs. well done brother germs!

to many blessing that God gave that day. i received gift from my mum, w394 cellgroup, hyatt, classmates, sophiaers. Thanks a lot friends. huahua. mum's cooked sambel goreng kentang (spicy fried potato), new phone, new bedsheet, new pillow, new tablecloth, new shirt, a cup of ben n jerry's ice cream... wow. a lot man. Truly, God has made ALL THINGS NEW. hahaha. Amen?

yesterday i read some verses in the book of Ecclesiastes. its about remember your creator while young, its on chapter 11. i do really thank God that ive been saved since 3 years ago, when i was only 16 y/o. means i have more time to do great things to God, isn't it? i'm young no matter what people say about me, i just loves God.

since this 2 days of tortured in hyatt, dunno now my thigh a bit pain. huhu. anybody know why?
keep me in prayer friends. gonna do some work for nafa outreach then sleep.

jiayou friends! miss school already.

result is out!

2008-06-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

Animation : B
Design Drawing : A
Digital Art : A
History of Visual Art : B
Typography : D
Web Design : A
2D Design & Color : B

Well done. Result came out already and what i expected is true, my typography mark is D. Umm, thats bad. Totally bad :( but the rest i got 3 A and 3 B !!! what is really surprising me is design drawing, which is i got an A from it. Unpredictable man... God is too good. This 2nd I semester really trusting in God and really I've been stretched my capacity, I've been working and studying at the same time and God provided me in everything. My GPA turned out to be 3.15 =)

His word is true, Those who sow in tears, will reap with songs of joy.

I really thanks God... Thanks thanks...

God, I want to go home.

jesus cares ^^

2008-06-08T23:22:00.003+08:00

hi people! tremendous week right, anybody can say amen? :) its been 2 weeks of holiday and been through this tough days but yet fantastic power of Holy Spirit who guides me and empowers me especially for these 21 days of prayer.

its nearly 1 year... i've been staying at singapore. really, God provides me man. i'm just a skinny mini girl from a small beautiful island in Bali who loves God and have a big dream. i raised in a simple family, ha, i may say it was some complications in my childhood life and turned me into a introvert, distrust people, bitter, a tough person but still lean on my own strength. My life turned upside down since I got saved since my 1st year of my high school. went up and down, been through times when my spiritual life running dry. guys, thats happened, but dont give up! the way of a righteous is brighter day by day. just keep goin bro and sis :)

:) Seru deh hidup ama Tuhan. Pernah deh ngerasain gimana susahnya nyari tempat tinggal padahal udah musti pindah besok dan ga ada duit. haha. parah dueh. trus pernah makan mie melulu ampe muka udah kaya mie goreng. lol. yesterday service rev. dr. robb thompson said, God will never give you a future that makes Him unnecessary. good job Father, You have succeed. hehehe. He made Him necessary in my life, He is a big needy! =)

today me and jejil went to indonesian service as usual. suka deh lagunya. i've translated it into english. roughly lah. kalo ada mistaken plis dikoreksi. nyehehe :)

terkadang kita merasa
tak ada jalan terbuka
tak ada lagi waktu
terlambat, sudah
(sumtime we feels that there's no way, no more time. Its too late.)

Tuhan tak pernah berdusta
Dia slalu pegang janjiNya
bagi orang percaya
mujizat nyata
(God is never lie, He always keep His covenant and His miracle is real for those who believe.)

Dia mengerti
Dia peduli
persoalan yang sedang terjadi
(He understands, He cares, for every problems thats happening now.)

Dia mengerti
Dia peduli
persoalan yang kita alami
(He understands, He cares, for every problems that you're facing now.)

namun satu yang Dia minta
agar kita percaya
sampai mujizat
menjadi nyata
(but one thing that He ask, so that we believe Him until His miracle will come to past.)

wedeh. what a long posting. at last, i want to share this video. ini gw banget bo. dan gw yakin ini juga kalian banget. keep your eyes dry. hehew. be blessed! mwah mwah

photos

2008-05-28T01:31:00.005+08:00

so long never put photos in my posts. there you go, my recent photos.

jesslyne, reynie and me

arki's bday

carol, novi, jesslyne, cecil, me and lidya

i love this song very much!

2008-05-28T01:18:00.004+08:00

have a blessed day. mwah mwah!

Lord Of my life I love You
Lord Of my days I trust in You
Living beneath the shelter of Your wings
My heart's safe

When I am lost You find me
When I'm in need You shelter me
Lord of my life You are my secret place

Clothe me in Your presence Lord
Draw me near to You
All my heart I long to give to You
Living to be near You Lord
I long to see Your face
Lord forever You're my secret place

You're my peace
You're my rest
You're my secret place

wo hen e

2008-05-25T23:50:00.004+08:00

took a step of faith, what pastor tan preached yesterday, repeated again with pastor aries in bahasa indonesia today. as usual it was strengthened my faith and my vision. i am in the right decision and the right time. remembered what my cellgroup leader told me a long long time ago, dont pray for the opportunity come to past, but pray so that when opportunity comes, you are ready to for it.

lots of things to catch up. start faithfully bible reading, was stopped at book of Leviticus. hoahahah. not so rush anyway, the main point is having an encounter with God everyday. well man, tomorrow i'm working, cyndy need to rest. need to wake up early to bun my hair. ckckck.

mwah mwah.
u know what. i'm hungry :(

happy holiday! nono, happy working! :)

2008-05-25T00:03:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, so... Happy holidayz! so cyndy will be working everyday from 10am-6pm monday to friday. saturday half day only then go to church straight away and finally, sunday i'm OFF. today, i've recharged! asked God to expand things in certain area and praying more. wanna pray wanna pray! ohoho. father's day coming in 3 weeks time. wanna plan something for brother steve aka my dad. hahahaha. any idea?

cyndy is...

2008-05-19T21:09:00.003+08:00

miss her little brother, jermy. today i called my mum and he answered the phone. now his voice is changed. its too bad i didn't see him physically growing up.
sick of food. i ate a lot... just now at east coast we had bbq. oh man, i just need to fast. my flesh needs have to be minimized.
having sore throat. glasses of tequilas and too much shouting isn't good for my throat.

to be continued...

21 days prayer

2008-05-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

i went to indonesian night yesterday... so happy! actually my class having bbq and rent a chalet nearby germs place, pasir ris area. some more each person have to pay 10 bucks. huhuhu. but nothing to regret, at indonesian night i was so blessed. 10 bucks is like nothing man... we sang indonesian's praise and worship songs, eating indonesian's food. they served batagor, smashed chicken, lapis, whoa, a lot more... dont forget the teh botol sosro, its a so-called tea-o-peng ala indonesian.

yesterday pst kong remembered us that we must have spiritual heritage. i was born in bali, indonesia, and God have a purpose in it. the testimony, the preach, the indonesian's atmosphere there just lighten my nationalism and i just say to God, "haiyo God, i want to do something for my nation, but how?????" hehehe.. be cool... looking forward seeing me myself, do something for the Kingdom of God, reaching out there in bali.

now, is the time to equipping myself, study hard dude... eager to be a designer, be the salt and light for marketplace. halah~ long way to go. amen right.

and this 1st -21st june is church 21 days prayer. gonna pray and fast more more more... some more it'll end at 21st june... wow... what a special day of mine... really excited!

oiya, quote for today.

"seek for who am I, not what I can do."

horayy

2008-05-15T14:02:00.004+08:00

just ended my assessment days. what a sleepless, gan jiong, emo, siao days. yea, one more thing, the money flew like a river, use money lavishly. huhuhu. i wish i have a printing shop T.T

so, i just wanna thanks to:

ika and lala, helped me and humbly welcomed me in their place to do my assessment.
jesslyne the nyunyu, thanks for the noodle. although it was no taste at all but really appreciate it, also your special cut and paste ability.
cecil the nyunyu's mom, if you weren't there i don't know what my design drawing would be.
lecturers, andrew, armando, sheldon, ms kay, jit, cheng ming chong.
mang gagah and mang gigih, thanks for opening your printing shop for 24 hours.
art friend, thanks for providing our needs in art. you are my best friend (lie. hahaha)
all of my classmates. mwa mwa.

and thanks God. that time was soo tight. but i do really know when i seek your kingdom, when i seek your presence, i gain my ability, i recharge my energy, even i expand my time! thanks God that time i still be a faithful cyndy. all of my projects wont be the same again with You, but yet special and extraordinary.

check it out!

2008-05-10T11:50:00.005+08:00

heylo all. check it out, my final assessment for web design,

>> http://sayacyndy.site88.net/ <<

the contact me page is not working T.T haven't do the programming thingy yet. need your comment please...

God bless you, xoxo

too heavy to carry

2008-05-04T10:51:00.004+08:00

hi blog. i feel so discouraged. yesterday during service i cried like a river, dunno why really really miss my mom. and some more city harvest announcement showing the video of mother's day. my heart pain and it's wounded. to much crying.

while i cried last night, God speak thru this verse,

Psalm 126:5
Those who sow in tears
will reap with songs of joy

I'm sorry friends, i tried to look that i'm allright, but yesterday i cant stand it anymore, the tears are heavy, the burdens are heavy. it's too heavy...

building fund fulfilled!

2008-04-26T23:53:00.003+08:00

woohoo.. today i fulfilled my building fund pledge. i know i'm running out of $$$ but no anxiety in my heart, at all. i really believe in God's promises that He'll prosper me, He'll take care of me, as long i put His kingdom first in my life, especially in my finances. thank God my last salary was just nice for building fund. will save money for this whole week... TEMPTATION SHALL NOT PREVAIL. hahahaha...

mikki charis said, God never fail to impress us. Yes, He is :) take a step of faith, trust the Lord on high, when you take care of His business, He'll return you hundred folds.

my building fund fulfilled. how about you? :) let's arise and build !!!

welcome back brother!

2008-04-24T15:00:00.006+08:00

What a day. I believe that if we walk with God every day, our day will getting better and better :) Days we've been through till now is significance and God always renew and make it special. Our God is God of new things.

From connect group meeting yesterday, i got equipped for assessment. Dun lean my own strength but always look unto the Lord, do it all of my project for God, not for men :) what made me amaze is that one of our brother joined us for prayer session and he changed a lot! Congrats for your breakthrough brother. Its just a beginning, born again and get ready to step up into the whole new level. Welcome back! :)

He can do all things that we ask, even it seems impossible. He is my God, Jesus. And He is your God too.

Ephesians 3:20
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us.

Back to assignment! :)

knowing Him and our purpose

2008-04-23T02:32:00.004+08:00

haih haih. good evening! nope nope. good morning! 3:30 am considered morning right? hah, whatever. history of visual art exam was OK. 34 upon 50 was a great blessing. remembered that actually i have to woke up early this morning so that i can study those thick history paper, in fact, i woke up late. anyway, today i worked and reached home at 12 sharp. bathed and had quite time and read the 9th chapter of purpose driven life book. just now doing the animation and needs another 10 secs to go.

today i share a bit of my life story with my friend. at first we talked about music, then talked about musician. flows.... then shared about my dad as a musician and dunno how i told her about my divorced parent. well, i'm not proud of it, but its a favor of God. Thanks God bcos of that i experienced many things and i became a strong cyndy :) got some question from her. the answer is here babe :)

she asked, then do you have father's love?
well, i may say, that day, before i got saved, i have no figure of a father. my life just flew and knowing that i have a strong mom whom survived for her kids and all i do is doing my best to make my mom proud. and my thought was i don't need my father, i refuse to forgive him. but since i got saved, knowing the Lord, knowing His words, His covenant, found my purpose in Him, my perspective has been extremely changed. i release the forgiveness for my dad, and i love my dad man.. we've been praying for him and now he changed a lot. do i have a father's love? yes i do, girl.

2nd question. which is more important, mother's happiness or child having daddy's love?
weiz, dunno why she asked this question. both are important. the essence is this, when selfishness comes, love is not there. when love is not there, theres no foundation, in this case, theres no strong foundation to build a family. which is more important? ask God for wisdom :)

Philippians 3:7-8 (NIV)
But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.

anybody have an answer? thanks. i'm not that wise, i've tried my best and its based on the word of life :) fill the comment pls. arigato. good night. Tuhan memberkati (God Bless) ^_^